I remember on that day I was wearing a beautiful pink dress, and I excitedly pumped milk for him to eat to help with his immunity. I had milk flowing from me in abundance, but he could only take .5ml at most. I remember on that day both of his eyes were wide open, which surprised me because he was born with one of his eyes sealed. He just stared up at me, gazing. Even though I could not hold him, I could pat his head and feet and let his small fingers grip mine